#41 by Dave Matthews Band

One of the greatest song from one of the greatest band in the world.








Come see
I swear by now I'm playing time against my own troubles oh
I'm coming slow but speeding...well
Do you wish for a dance and while I'm in the front
My play on time is won
Oh, but the difficulty is coming here...

I will go in this way
And I'll find my own way out
I won't tell you what to be
Oh no, but I'm coming to much more
Me
All at once the ghosts come back
Reeling in you now oh
Tell me what if they came down crushing
Used to be
When you and me play for all of the loneliness
that nobody notices now
I'm begging slow, I'm coming here...
oh, I'm waiting
I wanted to stay
I wanted to play
I wanted to love you

I'm only this far
And only tomorrow leads the way

I'm coming waltzing back
and moving into your head
Please, I wouldn't pass this by
Oh no, but I wouldn't take more, than I need
What sort of man goes by?
Well, I will bring you water
Why won't you ever be glad?
It melts into wonder
I came in praying for you
Why won't you run into rain and play?
And let all the tears splash all over you

The way the rain comes,
The way the rain comes down on you,
It does.

Sigh...

I can't seem to open my eyes due to frustrations, but I need to fight for a friend.

I can't seem to find strength to go on, but I need to stand up because of a commitment I made.

I feel like ending everything, but life has more to offer than eternal silence.

3 Strikes

A friend once told me that bad things do strike in 3s. Normally, when we encounter difficulties or bad luck, two other disaster will follow. It is but normal for us to fall down at times, but currently I am in a state of frustration.

There are people who are just stupid and they still hang out with other stupid people thus making them more stupid.

Even though Murphy is not invited in an event, he will really make way to ruin something that was planned way before and to make this worse, only a few are helping.

Friends and business is really like oil and water... Promises should now be considered as a lie... Tomorrow is like a diamond cause it's forever...

Being single

Summing up my past relationships, I was more or less in a relationship for almost 7 years. The time that I was single were only a few months. Currently I am single again and this time I am loving it. I once worried about growing old and not getting married. I was afraid and I do not know why. Maybe the idea of being alone creeps me, however, I think my perspective now is changing. I seem to be planning my future more seriously. Honestly, I tried to fix whatever was left with my past relationships but things are not going into plan. Rather than finding a new someone special, I would like to focus my attention in building my future. Career wise I mean. I always have this idea that different parts of our lives can be perfect, its just that, they will never be perfect all at the same time. Whenever we are lucky in our love life, other parts might be a problem like maybe our family or career. Coming from this perspective, I would like to put my love life in the back seat and focus more on other parts like friends and career. When things are smooth and running, maybe I can then change my focus again.

Currently I am single and loving how I am growing to be a better person.

A yearly tradition

Fun fun fun... A very close girl friend celebrated her birthday and she would always celebrate it in a hotel. Food and booze, party with really good friends and meeting new friends. She is part of one of my circles and we seldom see each other but we keep each other posted on whats happening.

The night was great unfortunately, we didn't have enough players who are willing to chip out money for poker. We ended up eating, drinking (not me), singing, and bashing one of our friends.

This has been a tradition for us to meet up and have fun. It was sad to hear that this might be the last time for her to celebrate at the hotel because her mom will retire soon. Hope that this will still continue for the next X years.

Cheers!

Wonderful Sunday

It has been a while since "the gang" had fun. Saturday night, we went out because one of our friend treated us for dinner. Normally, after dinner, we either go play poker or simply go home. Since our friend who has the poker chip was not there, our only choice is to just go home. However, a few of us stayed and just hang out. We then decided to meet on Sunday afternoon for a swim. It has been our tradition to cook whenever we go swimming. Since I can't swim, I just stayed in the pool and tried swimming. In the middle of our swimming session, we decided to watch Ironman 2. We quickly packed our things and went to the mall to catch the scheduled filming. It was nice to hang out with the gang again. Hope we can do this more often.