Just as Christmas passed by, I was wondering why each year is not as good as the last year's. Movies and Tv shows are showing a certain kind of season that I am looking for to. Ideas keep rushing into my head on why things are different now.
For the past few years, I am not spending it much with my family because my mom is in Hong Kong with my sister and my dad passed away last year. This Christmas season, I spent it with my older brother and grand mother. Nothing really special since my brother would prefer to play Ragnarok and on the eve of the 24th, just have something to eat and we just eat together. We never really cooked since I am the only one who enjoys cooking and when we changed our refrigerator/freezer to a smaller unit, I cannot stock meat anymore. Going back, another would be that I do not have any significant other for the 2nd year. It isn't a big deal but maybe I miss the companionship that relationships give. Lastly, I think I am also growing older where my priorities are slowly changing. Christmas season is now more of spending time with friends and resting. Along that line, I think the world is also growing older. Many people are just at home facing the net and just hang out when it is almost the eve of Christmas.
I do not know, but maybe I lost the sense of Christmas. Maybe by next year things will be a big different. Hopefully something better... but for now, Belated Merry Christmas to everyone and have a wonderful New Year.
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