Valentines Day

I never believe much in valentines day. For me, this is just a hype that people made to give justification to whatever nonsense they have in mind.

When I was in a relationship, I make it to a point to make every moment special. Not just for one day but everyday. Maybe I am not a person who follows norm much. I would rather bend rules and break a few.

Going out on valentines day is so cliche. Flowers, chocolates, balloons, and even fancy restaurants is not my type. When you do something that everyone else is doing at the day, the effort that you are doing will be so mundane.

When we love someone, there shouldn't be dates on when we should celebrate it. The moments you spend with that person should be special and memorable. One special day would never equate to the spontaneity or the surprises that you can do on other days.

However, valentines is not my day. It is for my (future) partner. I may not be a fan of this day, but if she is, then I cannot do anything but be a blinded by this insane tradition.

I do hope my future partner shares the same thinking with me...

Validation

I find it funny how others would show the world that they are strong and they can survive life on their own. Funny how they claim that they do not need others for support. When almost every time I talk to them, they validate themselves to me.

Just recently, I started hanging out with someone and she is confident and I like it. However, the more we hang out, the more I can sense that amidst her confidence, are insecurities. It has been months since my last relationship and my perspective has changed. There are certain things that I do not believe in but I will never close my door on love.

Anyway, we are in a stage of getting to know each other and she keeps in validating herself by saying "the guy would be lucky to have me!" The confidence of that thinking is great, however, when almost every time we talk, I hear those validations I tend to know her insecurities more.

I learned to validate myself only when she validated herself first. I also learned not to validate all the time since this can lower my self esteem. I know I am a good catch and being one is way better than constantly blabbing about it.

Don't quit

Don't quit when the tide is lowest,
For it's just about to turn,
Don't quit over doubts and questions,
For there's something you may learn.

Don't quit when the night is darkest,
For it's just a while 'til dawn;
Don't quit when you've run the farthest,
For the race is almost won.

Don't quit when the hill is steepest,
For your goal is almost nigh,
Don't quit, for your not a failure,
Until you fail to try.

Was fixing my files and I saw that I documented a great poem years back... I really need to be reminded not to quit.