Blind - Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

Tired

Business is picking up but clients are becoming too demanding... Been feeling sick since last week, but doesn't have time to rest. Now I am really feeling sick to the Nth power... Will be retiring to bed soon... but will pop in and watch another TV series until I am sleepy...

Hope business will continue like this and still grow... Tired... Too tired but atleast I can say its worth it...

Leave This Town

Music was one of the biggest influenced I got from my dad... it became part of my life... I was obsessing with Lifehouse with their wonderful songs then all of a sudden, I saw my sister's blog on Daughtry's new song. Since I have his album months back, I quickly listened to the songs and was captivated. Do not get me wrong, I am a fan since American Idol. So here is my short review and recommended songs... I am a fan of rock stars and definitely Daughtry has a great voice and the songs he released are different in style. Yes they are rock songs, but the approach are very different. In this album, Leave this town, the approach to the songs are still very different in melody, but the lyrics of the songs are still hard hitting and people can easily relate to. Good melody and wonderful lyrics are out of this world combination. Also, there are songs here that are quite slow in tempo and I believe that if a rock star sings a slow song, it would be amazing... (November rain for example) Here are the list of songs in the album Leave This Town

1. You Don't Belong 2. No Surprise 3. Every Time You Turn Around 4. Life After You 5. What I Meant to Say 6. Open Up Your Eyes 7. September 8. Ghost of Me 9. Learn My Lesson 10. Supernatural 11. Tennessee Line 12. Call Your Name

My Top picks would be, Tennessee Line, Life After You, September and No Surprise. Other nice songs are What I Meant to Say, Open Up Your Eyes, Ghost of Me, Supernatural, Learn My Lesson and Call Your Name. I can listen to this album everyday and still feels good. OK maybe not forever, but since most of us can and will be able to relate to his songs... its like he knows what we are going through. I played this album to my brother and friends, after a while they will be singing with me already... Amazing album...

Lost of words...

Its been a while since I posted... I have many ideas but I can't seem to express them properly... Focus, focus, focus...

Rain

I thought Friday would be a nice starting point where I can really rest from the misery my client is giving me, but the rain and strong wind is never a good sign... Maybe at some point, I knew that the rain will make me sleep better because it would be colder than usual and I need to prepare for one of my best friend's wedding on Saturday. Saturday morning came and the rain was still pouring like there will be no tomorrow. I continued resting and still figuring out what to wear or how would I manage my long hair (pony tail or not). Suddenly, the first floor of our house was flooded already and the flood outside was trying to get in from our main door.

We quickly took most of the important stuff to the 2nd floor like rice cooker food and other essential items. After a few minutes, we can't even go down because the flood was high and water was coming in from the window. I quickly called my friend because we were supposed to go to our friend's wedding together and we were both stranded because of the flood. We were planning to prepare our clothes and go to one of our friend's house to prepare for the wedding, but as the hour passed, our street was flooded already. I cannot get out anymore and we thought we would missed the wedding, but later on we were informed that the wedding was moved to Monday... poor couple I was really sad for them...

Hours had passed and good thing we still have food to eat here and I am so glad that we have electricity and Internet (though the net is fluctuating as usual). Though we only have enough food for 1 day because we were suppose to buy yesterday. Another thing was that my phones were malfunctioning it was so hard to get a signal.

When I woke up this morning, the rain stopped and the flood subsided. Still our ground floor looks like a dirty pool. The altar and my sister's piano was a big mess (I have not seen it but I am sure about it). We can go out but we need to create some bridges. We can buy food now but still the house is a mess... Hope the flood will subside soon...

Stress

For the past few weeks, I was so busy focusing on an account we had. Not the best client but since we committed to delivery, we need to do everything we can. Our project was so challenging that we need 2 suppliers to finish it. The worst part is that the time line is simple crazy.

So last Sunday, I went to my supplier to pick up some items that our client requested. I wasn't in the mood to go to our client because it is far and to delivery the partial items is another story. While waiting for the train in the MRT in Boni station, I saw two guys on the other side waiting for a train. To my surprise, they did not board the train even if they can. I assumed that they are taking their time to wait for a less crowded train. When our train came, the usual savage attitude of the people of "pushing the person in front of you just to get in" was engaged. I had a good spot near the side of the door. When I looked around, the same two guys from the other side was standing outside our train and I was wondering why. The young man near the door suddenly checked his cellphone and to our surprise, those two son of a bitch was actually not boarding because they are using the situation to swipe things while people were pushing their way in. The phone was retrieved and I was kinda hoping that young man would start a fight for I will surely give those idiots some beating (I wasn't in the mood and I hate those people who will steal from honest people). During our trip going to Shaw, the young man's friend found out that he lost his wallet so when we were in Shaw station, they quickly got out and notified the authorities. I felt so lucky because a few inches would made me the victim and it would surely mess a messed up day.

Upon arriving at my supplier's place, I got the delivery and was on my way to Cubao to drop off the items. I was so tired that I just rode the first bus going to Cubao. I didn't mind if it was an ordinary one over those air conditioned bus. My only motive was to deliver it ASAP and go home and rest. During the trip, the bus stopped I think somewhere in Munoz. Street kids were trying to ride the bus, maybe to ask money from the passengers. The driver asked the kids to leave and it became a little physical. Though no harm was done. One of the street children was mad and he picked up a stone as big as a brick and threw it to our window. It almost hit me in the face and fortunate enough it hit the side of the bus. I would be unconscious if it hit me. Just made me realize that my day is not getting any better.

I hurried home and rested. I continued to analyzed what has just happened and it seems that when we are messed up, sometimes the higher being up there is really helping us not to face more problems. Maybe I was so down and it would really be a kick in my balls if my wallet would be stolen (take note, I only have 100 pesos in my wallet that time) and if I was hit by that stone (my ever demanding client needs those items already and if I was hit, somebody might just steal those items). In the end, maybe I was saved to live to fight another day. True enough, the week is getting more stressful...

Otherside

"Father into your hands, I commend my spirit
Father into your hands, why have you forsaken me?
in your eyes, forsaken me
in your thoughts, forsaken me,
in your heart, forsaken me...
Oh, trust in my, self-righteous suicide
I cry when angels deserve to die"

I feel like leaving this world... sometimes I hope it will all suddenly end... it seems more peaceful on the other side...