Trying

I am trying so hard to be strong yet to you I surrender...
I am trying to be okay yet it is your voice that makes me okay...
I am trying to make you laugh and smile, yet I over did it...
I am trying to stand up yet I know deep inside I can feel the void that you filled...
I am trying to be there for you yet it seems you can do it on your own...
I am trying to say goodbye but I know I love you enough to still hold on...